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Ok so lately I have tried not to think of this but time has crept up on me and this is my only option in sorting my life out. I guess up to this put it seemed like a dream and not real that I signed up to go back to college. Now those silly thoughts are coming back into my mind and mostly what the hell have you done and why an earth do you think you will be able to complete a course let alone a term...... also the anxiety is at highs but like I said it's this or long term unemployed and stuck in a rut I don't think I could cope much longer with getting an interview only to be looked at like why an earth did you bother to apply you hopeless waste of space. I know it's a joke as well me going back to college is never going to put right my horrible waste of life or existence but part of me want's to live and have a life and this seem the only way.... maybe this is just the anxiety getting jumbled up again but those horrible thoughts seem so true and I am so scared this is going to go wrong and back up those horrible thoughts then there is no other choices or hopes for me...... Need to shut up my mind and try not to panic... easier said than done.... I don’t need any replies just me putting it out there at least it free's up a bit of space in my mind, Thank you for reading.
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