Quote:
Originally Posted by BlueInanna
We are super sensitive, imho part of bp, and may also vary with our moods. Sometimes nothing anyone says can bother me. Other times i'm easily ticked off. I've screamed at some of the posts I've read... but right now thinking back on those it's like, meh, no big deal, really, let it go.
I've always been a hippy and avoiding doctors and medicines unless totally necessary. What changed for me was when my daughter attempted sui at age 14, and it was touch and go in the picu. She was then hospitalized, I had no experience with such a thing, never pictured it in being in our lives. I knew about my grandma's gorey sui, but it was before I was born. I was only told about it in my teens when I was depressed and suicidal. (at that time I decided I had to break the chain of sui in my family, and that's a good thought for me, I have a strong will). So I was desparate for help and they said she needed meds...realizing this is some dangerous thing that apparantly runs in my family. And then my son got depressed and then we're all dx'd bp... and it's mayhem. Trying to force the teens to take meds has not worked... I take some and they seem to help.... for now.
The views on bp vary widely. I still think it's part of my personality, and that meds can help when it flares up and I feel ill from it. I'm also well aware I'm lucky I don't have a more severe case, havent heard voices or hallucinated. But both my bp kids have those schizoaffective experiences, but they are choosing to go unmedicated for the time being. Maybe, if things happen for a reason, I have a less serious case so that i'm more able to care for my babies...
Just my ramblings, I'm glad you are here creativelight  I'm thinking about things again that I havent thought about in some time. |
Sometimes I think we misunderstand what others write because we have our own perspective on things. Kind of like we see what we want to see. It all comes down to what other member said (sorry I'm bad with names, hamster should know that by now) we bring our own experiences of how we deal with our own situations but at the end of the day we are just trying to find ways to cope.
I was like you very hippy because again my own experiences led me to be that way. I never attempted suicide nor anyone in my family that I know of. But I did have episodes of haluccinations.. I think it was also due to my lifestyle at the moment. I can tell you that I was hospitalized for two weeks and I was out, they didn't think I would return... I was thinking I was dead and in some type of pulgatory. It wasen't until my family was able to visit that I realized I was alive lol. I have been Blessed with a very loving family, they are my support system. However, they all should have mental diagnosis but I'm the only one that due to bla bla well I'm the only one with the diagnostic.
I'm sure we can all find in our families different types of disorders. I know my dad is bipolar like me, my mom is OCD and so on and so on.. But I honestly tell you, I wouldn't know how to handle it if my children were to develop any of our illnesses and attempt suicide. I guess life prepares you to handle what you can and we find ways to cope. I'm proud that you have not imposed to your children x or y. Your letting them experience their own journey, while taking good care of them.
I'm also happy to be here, I think I'm embarking new lesssons... I burried my past like it didn't happen. Almost as if I were ashamed of it when I used to be very proud of wearing my scars... Let's see what unfolds