I do landscape maintenance for a living. I own the company and unfortunately, I work alone a lot of the time. Well... my work has really suffered for the last couple of months. I would always go through spurts of really good work and really lazy work before due to hypo and depression, but since starting meds it has been a constant lazier work! no hypo = less work done while I adjusted.

But today, the properties are at a point that if I don't get back to normal, this week, then I will not be able to keep them. I have pushed it right to the limit in regards to not trimming and blowing the properties. My wife thinks I have done this out of laziness, but honestly, I needed the time away/off work to accept my dx and get used to the meds.

Now, I am nervous about getting back to the grindstone. What if I can't do it? I'm making about 34,000 a year and we are barely getting by with that. Ugh... nothing like a little pressure.

I think a lot of it was I needed time to actually mourn my dx. Sounds dumb, huh.. but I needed time to be angry and sad over it. At first, I was trying so hard to be the 'perfect' patient that it took a while for me to do that!

Oh well, sorry for the long post