Christina my friend... Growl, roar,spit venom, claw- or do it simultaneously if you like! You fought a good fight so far, but there's no shame in bringing out the big guns, even when the recoil hurts. I know you hate the haldol, I would too, but it's just until the hallucinatons are gone or until George Clooney appears;
) i admire your spirit,kick bipolar's butt my friend!