I just read your original post; I don't post a lot in BPD because I am not officially diagnosed and I don't feel like I should post advice since I don't really know if I am or not. But I did read it today . I am sorry you are hurting so much.

I always worry I will give the wrong advice, or say something stupid, regardless of where I post!

I understand getting upset...I do too sometimes if I don't get responses, I feel unimportant or not worthy of a response. But then I remember that I have trouble responding and maybe others do too! Please keep us posted on how you are doing. I will lurk around and wait to hear back...sorry again.