((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

As a sexual abuse victim myself I do my all means understand the HATE in which you are speaking of toward your abuser, your brother (some of my abusers were family members too) and I often found it hard to control let alone have to deal with my inner feelings / wounds while I still had to see the people that harmed me on a daily or weekly basis..... the ones that took my innocence and childhood from ME.

My best suggestion to YOU right now is to stay in counseling and work hard on HEALING you and do not worry about your brother right now.... for your day of reckoning with him will come in time - when you and your mind are healthier.

In the mean time - keep trying to work on a financial solution that will work for you when the time to move out is right.

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( )))