Exactly where I am at now. I am sorry this life has been so difficult for you, I know it is for me. People always tell me things like "quit being emo" and "you have nothing to complain about", "quit whining" and the list goes on. But truth is, they have no idea what goes on in my head, how I feel, and how everyone's coping levels are different. Sometimes I think I hate people, but then I remind myself that it is not their fault; that there is a reason for everything.

I dont think I can go through with killing myself, but I sure wish I didnt exist...

I'm sorry I dont have the answers. I wish I could have been somebody, a hero, some charming guy that always knows what to say in,the worst situations. But I can't. Im just a nobody that is good for nothing and will die a painful death one day for nothing.