Okay so now is the time you need to get yourself to the ER. Do you have any one at home with you? If you can't get to the ER you need to call the suicide hotline right now. 1-800-273-8255 (TALK) This is absolutely serious and you need to either go to the ER or call, okay?

Suicide is not a solution, suicide is a demon inside your head telling you lies. It's an evil thing and it won't solve anything. Please, please, please get some help. Suicide is just a lie that depression tells you, it's not real and it will pass. But you should get some help from real live people ASAP. Because you don't have to fight this alone.