No, these are the lies of the suicide demons. They think they know everything but they are wrong. They will sit back and tell you that you are nothing, worthless, and never get anywhere. But that is all lies! Lies!

Can you see the future? Are you a psychic that can see the future so perfectly and exactly? If so then who needs college you can become a famous psychic. Well, I don't think you are. And so, how do you know you'll never amount to anything? The only way that happens if you give up. The only way that happens if you listen to those demons in your head.

Suicidal thoughts are not real. They are lies! They are the most dangerous lies. The pain you feel is real. Depression is very real. You are not wasting your life if you are working toward healing. You're creating your life! All the goals you want to reach require that you fight for your life! You have to fight it! You have to!

You don't listen to anyone who puts you down. You're not wasting your life. I read somewhere else you're only 23. Trust me, 23 is young. You're not too old for college. I went back when I was 27 to vocational school. My cousin is 30 and she just went back to comunnity college, after overcoming sever depression and social anxiety. She doesn't have a boyfriend, either, and still lives at home. And she's 30! But she's not giving up because 30 is young.

You want a girlfriend, but now is the time for healing you. As healing begins people will come into your life. When you're depressed you live in the fog. You live in the storm. When you're having suicidal thoughts you're in the middle of the thunder cloud with rain pouring all around you and the lightning is trying to knock you right out of the sky. Of course you can't see anything bright and sunny in the future because you're in the middle of the dark clouds! But you are stronger, and you can do it.

Please, please, please go to the ER or call the suicide line. Please. You are not dead. You're alive. Don't listen to the lies. Live!