Saw my MD and she upped my effexor and added Abilify. Its going to take awhile before I notice a difference she said. She also gave me klonopin to calm me down and has me off work until wednesday night. I talked with my therapist over the phone for quite awhile as she had no openings. I see her Wednesday morning (she's off tomorrow). We discussed coping skills. She really liked the idea of this forum. My friend and I sat at the beach for a few hours talking and not talking. But now I'm home again and feel the tears coming and the self-hate and loathing. Why am I so screwed up?