((Roadie))

Even just a little support can go a long way for some, not having to be totally involved as a sponsor would be with a person. And even then as i understood it- Sponsors have sponsors themselves, in a way a group effort of one leaning on another, and that one leaning on another when needed too.... and even if you are not taling about AA or NA supporting people-- that idea, goes for many other things in life with humans.. not just recovering addicts.

Roadie I think i may know how you feel (maybe?), however with me-- well maybe it is similar with yours-- I want to do something with helping other people in various ways-- a lot of times I like the idea of helping kids-- however-- 1) triggers for myself from others (reminders and such even if not meaning to), 2) am I strong enough? I know I tell myself- you don't know until you try-- but the fear of trying, and failing, and falling down--- perhaps it would be a lesson needed to be learned- perhaps-- just perhaps, it would not turn out of failing as I think in my head - perhaps I am that strong (as you too), and just don't fully realize it... -- if that makes any sense... 3)I know I have some more work on myself before I go for the gold on my wish.... 4) I am just unsure to begin with what to do...

I am sorry if that is babbling-- But what I am trying to say here, is.... We don't know how strong we are until we try, and that Does not mean to just jump into something blindly (that some what sets up for failure if we do)- what I would suggest is to be sure that you have support behind you- Someone(s) to talk to, confide in and to call up or lean on yourself in case failure does occur.. that way, going back down to rock bottom in one category IS not as probably as it would be on your own.... They can help remind you of what greatness you have, what you have achieved even if "failure" seems to be the out come..... I think with all failures there is a little success -- a little learning, which is a little achieving; so nothing is truly a failure right? (of course I could be off my rocker with that all )

Many Hugs and I hope you find what you need but that is just a thought of a Beauflow right now on it...