Thanks beauflow. In this case my sponsor thinks that I am not willing to take a chance with someone because of a lack of will, not because my sobriety would be at stake. I see myself as weak, but maybe I am just lazy--or scared. When she's pushed me in the past, I've always benefited--and in general, she seems to know me better than I know myself.

As someone pointed out recently, my fears about this are based more on my imagination than on any reality.

"Good grief, Charlie Brown!" as the saying goes. I hate decisions!!