I guess this represents the 'disaster' in your name eloquent, and hence the opposties that obviously keep you intact ....well intact enough.

I'm not implying it's at all comfortable...

I feel like saying I (suffer) from overloaded anger at times in public.... and I sure do....but...or yet I might like to say instead that I "experience" it.

...therefore it is justified just for me...just if I'd...not been bad at all

I say "damn cool"...stick up for mum everytime let no-one get in the way