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Originally Posted by Vigodits
If I had an answer I'd share it. I feel as if the air is jello and I am fighting to move through it. I can't focus and I find it harder and harder to resist the siren call of my bed. My former pdoc tells me this is normal. I am not putting much faith in the quality of his education. I am still auditioning new ones. They all seem to have very fine filters for me to try and fit through. It is as if they are only looking for easy ones that they can fix.
Oh and have deep pocketed insurances.
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Actually, it is normal. The air can feel thick and heavy and sit right on top of you like it's going to crush you. That's part of depression. And the urge to just go lay down and sleep and let the world spin away while you're safe in your bed is also normal for depression. Giving in to the bed and not getting up is very common, actually.
I'm one of those rare rebells to the call of the "give up and lay down," I force myself. But, sometimes I just sit and stare at the t.v. instead of lay down.
As for pdocs, I don't have too much experience there, but working in the healthcare I can tell you that a lot of it can be based on money, yes. Some are more in it for the "good of others" than others, so if you find one of those hold on to them tightly. Otherwise, if you live in the US have you looked into medicade? If you get on SSI you can get medicare. Or, if you can't do either of those, you can look for sliding scale clinics.