I to know what your going through over the last 37 years my life has been a hell on earth with his mood swings i have been beaten and made to feel less than human i stayed because of my children now they have there lives. now all my family ie brothers are living abroad i am 58 years old and trapped to ill to work and to scared at my age to move out.please seek help go to your doctor or the womens aid even if you have children please please seek all the help you can get it will only get worse i know.i am living with a man i hate for what he has done to me.and believe me that is no live.thinking about you x