...thanks Ophelia, I mean that!....like I have to say it you know I always mean what I write say or scream or yell or sneeze. thankyou.

it's true, I am afraid of things I make decisions every day based on my fears and I have more than some and less than most but more than I ever planned on having!

..they all turned up when I discovered I had feelings and didn't have the stability to support the feelings....

mental illness is more than the mind...it begins there and it becomes an emotional experience.

thats why it's so difficult to explain because once the damage is really done the mind cannot cope anymore.!

...holy crap!...sorry everyone...this is a bit full on...