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Originally Posted by dahliaflower12
I've had depression and anxiety for thirteen years. I also have a sleep problem that does not fit into any of the typical disorder categories, and for the past six years I have slept at least 12 hours a day. I am always tired. I can't work a job.
I feel as though I am trapped in my body. I don't know what's wrong with me. Everyone tells me things will get better, and I believe them, but it's so difficult to keep going on, year after year, appointment after appointment.
I cry every day. I am young, not even 20 years old, and my youth has been consumed by my mental illness and fatigue.
I wonder what the value of my life is at this point. What is all of this worth?
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One of the things that's helped me stay around is that I got in better shape. It has helped my energy level and my mood somewhat. I also read and play video games. I know that doesn't sound like much but those games make me laugh and smile. Try not to consume yourself with self worth questions. We drive those feelings, so you are only tearing yourself down. Your young and have a long life ahead of you. Consider this time as a learning experience. You've learned a lot about yourself, so now is the time to use that to your advantage. People with depression have an advantage there because we can't run from our truths. Use what you know about yourself and illness to move forward. You know what you like and don't, what triggers you have, when you feel the most fatigued and so on. Get yourself on a schedule and get something that will occupy your mind. Put all that knowledge to use. For me, it was music, I love listening to music but with a wife and kids and work, I don't get time to listen. So I purchased a good set of cans and now I make time to listen to music on my headphones. It helps me when I'm down. Small changes like that have kept me going. They make a difference.