Well, I have been drinking water...sometimes. I do drink quite a bit but haven't always. I get a little out of control sometimes, like lately. And I smoke a lot of weed. I'm also promiscuous and prone to spending money when I shouldn't and can't afford to - and all of those things feed each other. Today is the first day in a week or two that I haven't drank or smoked. To be fair, it's not 5pm yet and I have plans later.

Normally, I can have just a couple of beers. I can even have mixed drinks or wine (when I'm feeling classy) without going overboard. I don't think there any alcoholics in my family and I don't feel diseased about it. I think I am just kind of a party girl at heart and need to come up with some standard or something to keep me from going full boar. Like, just because I can get drunk and stoned does not mean that I should, but I forget that part so often.

The downsides I'm seeing now is that I also eat too much when I drink and smoke so I'm putting on weight and my attention span...what attention span? I also tend to say inappropriate things when I'm drinking, as we all do. And I get lazy and messy. So yeah, balance - how does one go about getting that? Do well-adjusted people have it? If I stop drinking and smoking abruptly, will I get all tense and agitated and mean and spiteful? I sort of feel like I will.