I forgot to add that there are days when I'm so depressed and all I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep the day away , But I can't even do that , I lay there so tired but wide awake my thoughts just racing alone with my own thoughts . Crap !
I just can't find meaning in this life .
I also seem to put all the pain and suffering in this world on to me , I think just to feel bad and guilty , I have no peace , My mind screams !