...so what it's all over yesterday is finished today is half done I can't do nuthin' about it it's too bad!

I'm a lost soul a lost human damaged ...ouch!...oops...embarassed??

NO way!

this is what it's like for me ....cycling madness ...comfort in the chaos

just close my eyes for no reason I seen it all before darkness is brighter than daylight nasty sh.t!

damn it once again I said too much!

but what else to do ?

I thought I knew the edge been there and each time I come back it's different

like i'ts all new but it's not it's just I aint used to it

and here I am breaking my fu.king heart on purpose just to feel something!

and I don't even know how I am doing it it's just happening

tears are pouring down my face too many problems I hide all this
it comes out now why now? I need rest I need to sleep I can't sleep I want to sleep I want it to go away I hate this I love the feeling of chaos ! the pain makes sense of the emptiness the agony of nothing is brutal I want to cry forever let it all go I want to drain myself

I am so tired of thinking I should be sleeping I am so tired of it