I vote for option A.
About being idealistic/overexaggerating... I think that a lot of us feel that way when we have a T that we like. It didn't quite happen that way with me and my first T (I decided to move, not him), but I also thought I would have a really hard time finding a new T that would be even half as good as he was.

However, I now have a T who is totally amazing and one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I can't compare and say one is better than the other, but I do feel that my old T was perfect for me at that time of my life, and that my new T is perfect for me at this time in my life.

Find a new one - you'll thank yourself. You've been through a lot and stopping therapy altogether, especially at your age, would deprive you of some adult support that I personally wish I had back then.

Hang in there!
LMo