Jenne,

I often sit up late at night and think of my childhood friends..or even as of late, my older highschool to college friends, some of whom you even met. ALL of whom I have lost touch with, and for good reasons I suppose. But I too look back to the good ones..the ones that were always there..the ones that produced good memories..the ones that I laughed with and shared my life and family with..I too know that my experiences through life drove those friends away..and I don't blame them..but I too miss them dearly..unlike you, I have chosen not to look for them..for I fear the rejection, although in my case, warranted. You know what is even funnier..is I even think about the ones that didn't like me at all when I was younger, I still to this day think about why it was as a child that they didn't like me..I mean I was a freaking KID..
Anyways, not only do I find myself thinking about old friends..I find myself dreaming about people I haven't thought about in ages..but like I said it is the ones from highschool and college..Our little Pensacola friend is one..my lifetime bestfriend gone..so I know...my advice to you is to do what Ive done with you..DON'T GIVE UP..KEEP TRYING..AND KEEP BUGGING..THEY WILL COME AROUND..THEY WILL SEE IN THE END THAT YOU DON'T REALLY WANT ANY THING IN RETURN ANY MORE..YOU JUST WANT TO AN OLD FRIEND BACK!