What shall i do do you think? surely i cant keep ignoring him, because it will get noticed by my dad and others. i feel trapped right now by it and it feels like such a burden one has to carry alone.

it was my first day back at work after having a week off due to my shoulder injury, and after the arguement last night (the one in the original post on this thread) with my brother i couldnt sleep much last night, i just led in bed thinking about what he said, at one point he called me "pathetic" and he said "it really gets to him when i treat him like s**t", almost as if he expects different. i did cry last night, merely because i was so tired, and emotional after the row yesterday, and as i lay there in bed last night, i wished my mum was here so i can talk to her, we had a good friendship when she was alive.

but back to my brother, i am rapidly running out of ideas as to how to live with someone i feel like that over, im immediately put in a bad mood when he comes home, and i never want to talk to him, so im always left feeling my true-self is being surpressed, and after doing that for many years i just want it to stop, i just want to be me again.

i will hopefully have a better night sleep tonight, i only had 4 hours last night! (work today was so hard, but thats a different matter) so fingers crossed for tonight.

speak soon guys, and thank you so far for your comments of support, is greatly appreciated.