i am doing better and i also realize that things i type change or do not belong and things that have upset me there was never enough to do anything about and if anyone feels differently then that can only exist because things were kept from me i have been ill probably half my life i now realize and because i feel certain things exist every where i have lived or will i have been made into a fool or something along those lines and anyone claiming victory or even reacting to that is in a far worse position that i ever will be