its strange how we often think of past friends in our lives. i do that, and i do miss them, they mean so much to us as children, they play such a huge part in our lives, so its never easy to just forget someone so quickly.

recently i have remembered someone a little more parculiar...when i was 14 my mother died and my tutor in school at the time was Miss Westcott, she was wonderful to me, she was so supportive, and even though she never knew about my abuse as a child, she always saw so much more to me than others did. i suppose you could say i was a teachers pet, i nevr had many friends in high school, no one really wanted to know me after mum died, it probably made them feel uncomfortable. i will never hold it against them, we were so young at the time, how can 14 year olds be expected to offer so much support. i am 19 years old now, have been out of school for about 3, nearly 4 years, and i now, only keep in touch with 1 of my high school friends, and rarely, 2 of my juniour school friends.

but it is Miss Westcott i would love to get back in touch with, she moved far away 1 year after my mum died and she left me a note saying something along the lines of "Simon, i am so proud of you, i have learnt as much from you as i hope you have from me, you are truly inspirational, and i will never forget you. i wish you all the best in future years, and i will be keeping an eye on you." which was very touching at the time. i dont quite know how to get back in touch, i would love to, just so we could chat, i could tell her how much ive progressed through life, and we could be friends again, but this time, not as teacher/pupil, just ordinary friends. she was only about 24 at the time, so she would be about 29 now. but it is best not to raise hopes, as if it doesnt work out how we hoped, it isnt so heart-breaking. although it can be easy to get so excited.

i do often wonder how she is, and i did try to look her up on the internet but it led to nothing as i didnt know where to look, but reading this post has inspired me to try again, so i think i will tonight. thanks for that guys.

hope all is good, and keep those memories of past friends treasured, they are never to be forgotten. sometimes friendships dont last, its not something we should feel upset about, as its just part of growing up. friendship is always different when we are young, its so much easier, no complications. but it is true friends that shine through and these are the ones we keep for life.