no no you see the whole trouble starts when I start believing that i am worth something...I know I am not worth all this praise and it does make me feel better but I can't let it get to me...cause when I get thrown back down it is just so much harder to get back up again...so if I stay down in the basement no one and nothing can hurt me ever again...it's just that if I don't let it out now and then it builds and one day I won't be getting up again...