thank you for your support open eyes.

I can't keep beating my head against a wall.

I am thru doing research on therapists.

Right now.

Unless and until I see ads on tv that talk about bpd and until the counseling centers are open again, I can't do it.

I am sick of rejection right now.

I dream of having a t that understands.

But it's not going to happen right now. I did look. I did.

And I find the most help here.

At least ppl here accept me and treat me like a person.

that therapist did not know what she was doing! And she tried to send me back to a place that was abusive that I got out of!

I did try after that for a while, online t's and a couple more f2f ones. And got shot down again!

sorry.

thanks agian for recognizing my hard work, too.

I am busting my behind trying to beat this.

Billi