Granite maybe it was time you told her something like that and now it's out there. Our minds have ways of giving us things when we are ready. Your T knew there was more then you were telling her and everyone is right...she does like you and is there to help you. I'm very proud of you for the slip up, I'm sure this will lead to more sharing and healing. We all love you honey and you know that. We are all here for you. I also agree that there is a huge difference between you and your past... The things that were done to you as a child, that coat of shame and embarrassment is not yours to wear, it belongs on the ones who did those things to you. Be kind to yourself honey, I know it's hard. Pm me if you ever need anything.