((Mr Venomous)) - I'm sorry you're hurting and fearing the future. I can see from your photography and the way you write about Middle East politics, that you're a talented person. You're also extremely knowledgeable about insects. I think you should look into being a professional photographer/working with cameras or working in a science center that has insect exhibits....something that shows your talent/knowledge.

You mentioned before you wanted to be a bus driver. Do you still want to do this? Try not to lose hope and the fact that you're nice and respectful...this is a good asset to have. I hope something good comes your way soon and know we care about you here.