Releasing turned out to be impossible, because the former best friend has chosen to remain a present, active part of my life. I haven't had time to adjust to a new relationship with her or the family. Her 9-yr-old grandson, who's also been close to me, has perhaps pushed for things to continue as usual ... IDK for sure. I was angry for a while, very angry at myself, I had made such big deal out of everything and failed to acknowledge a child's needs before my own. Now a lot of crying and not much sleep has me feeling mostly empty. Don't feel worth what I put everyone through, and I don't want to put anyone through this again.

I'll finalize the date with everyone involved. Otherwise, all the plans are made for the museum visit, and I hope I carry this through.