Sway

I can really relate as well. My ex-hub and I were married for 14 years. While I wasn't ever really "in love" per say, I do strongly believe in making & sticking to long-term commitments. So, while I felt kind of dead inside...I also panicked at the very thought of the end of our relationship. I think that he was my "safety net".

I've talked about my marriage many times, so I'll try not to bore anyone. My ex-hub was a man that I thought I could be committed to for life, despite our differences. That changed as my depression became very severe (and I was recovering from brain injuries). My ex just didn't understand my misery at all. He had no sympathy, and only became more frustrated with me for not meeting his expectations as a stay-at-home mom. It was hell for me!!

While the divorce was very painful for me, I can now see that it was necessary. It is still sad for me to look back upon though ~ especially since we had 2 children and we've split custody. That is a hard and frequent reminder of reality.

Best wishes to you!