No elfina, I don't think you're a narcissist or a self-attention seeker... You have a mental disorder, & I have one too, & this is some kind of suffering nonetheless. Actually, I even think it's more suffering than body illnesses (except for cancer that is )...

Don't underestimate your condition, read a lot about it, & seek its proper treatment, & stand by & support others like you & also those worse-off, which I consider to be part of the treatment for the mind & soul as well, like posting & sharing in these forums too :*)

& try to enjoy your life however you can... & keep believing in God & your potential to treat yourself & others too ♥