Sorry you hate your life, and that you're lonely (I know how that feels), but I'm confused. You say that you need someone to talk to, and how much your life sucks, but the last time you posted (basically) the same thing, but also asking all kinds of questions regarding therapy....many people sent you hugs, and two of us (myself included), wrote you rather long responses with all kinds of suggestions, trying to be helpful, and show you that we care. And yet you responded to NO ONE in any way, including just to say "thanks". I'm sorry if it sounds blunt, but there are many, many people on this forum who are hurting badly, and when people choose your post to respond to, and sometimes spend a good bit of time doing so, that is a gift. But then you post once again that you have no one to talk to? Hmm. As someone who has suffered from depression for over 40 years, one thing I know is that one needs to at least try to appreciate the little blessings that life does offer. And btw, don't get me wrong, I'm not at all asking to be thanked for my long message now, nor do I think I'm "all that".....just hoping you might run this through your mind some day. All the best to you..... ps.....and oh btw, none of us asked for this life.