Anger and a way out...

I am a peaceful nuetral person.
I understand intellectually why I feel the way I do.
I am not quick to anger but recently challanged and failed.
I became more angry at myself for allowing someone to change my state of mind.
I know thinking negative thought brings negative karma so alot of times I have to catch myself because....
There is a part of me at times where I think I could really enjoy torturing those who have injured me (my abusers'). But I know that this is Mara challanging me.( in Buddhism,a force of evil, sometimes concived to be devil).
So I have been taught by paying attention of my thinking, thoughts, intentions, and actions to just wag my finger and say I see you Mara and my mind returns to neutral.
Vengence is not mine, and Revenge will not bring me solace.
I pray/meditate for protection against those who wish me harm.
Karma is a beautful thing, it takes care of me.

I do not wish harm to anyone and my faith is what keeps me strong.
I can say alllowing Karma resolve things is better than being attatched to anger.
Happiedasiy