Thank you all for your input on this and for a great welcome!

I guess I thought different sexuality practices was so common in society today, I have never before met someone being judgmental of it. Curious, wondering, felt it kinda weird, but respected it. But of course they may not have said what they really thought of it. At least, I have never been rejected by someone for this when I have been open and talked about it. Therefore in my naivety I really didn't think it would be an issue for a psychologist, and I also didn't think it would be a subject at all in therapy, but when she mentioned it, I felt I should tell her about how I'm put together. I was already ashamed after telling about what was going on behind the infidelity issue, and her reactions to it, and I felt that I could not defend myself, partly because I didn't find words, partly because I felt I deserved everything she said. So I am not sure if was able explain everything completely as I feel it is to her, I could not get myself to use exact words and tried to explain things by going slightly around the business. Don't know if it matters, but I suppose there is possible she would have reacted different if I was able to sit straight and look her in the eyes and not feeling ashamed and not laugh and smiling unapropriate. So I don't think I completely disagree with Hankster either. I think what Hankster is saying is at least some of the reason I feel confused about it.