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Originally Posted by shortandcute
I am having a hard time feeling any grief over the loss of a lady I've known my whole life. (I am going on 50) She was on of my oldest sister's closest friends and I loved her to pieces--I even named my daughter after her. She committed suicide about a week ago and I just cannot bring myself to grieve over this. I start to get a little sad when I see my sister trying to deal with this, but I have a big part of me that almost doesn't believe it. Not that I think anyone is lying per se, but it's more like surreal-or something. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!?!?!?!?!
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nothing is wrong with you. everyone mental disordered and not goes through the grieving process their own way. there are 5 phases to the grief cycle and one of them is called ***shock*** (some locations call this the denial phase).. in this phase people go through the process of getting the news someone has died, indifference in other words the news has little to no affect on them other than knowing the person has died and watching how others deal with the news coupled with light sadness and sometimes the feeling of "I cant believe shes gone" then the feeling like the person could walk through the door at any moment proving the persons not dead.
after this phase has passed the grieving person enters one of the other phases called depression, anger, bargaining, and acceptance.
how a person goes through each of these phases is different for everyone and how long they remain in each phase is different for everyone.
again there is nothing wrong with you, you are just going through the grief process differently than your sister or others near you which is completely normal.