its cuz im crazy. i can't make sense. no one canunderstand this. i'm not worth iy. i should die for that alone. i am ill. nothing changes that... I would kill everyone in this world before see a pdoc or take meds.. nothing ever gets better. they want me to die... they told me. everyone.. they all hate me. i don't want them near me. leave me alone. nothing is good. why am i still here... they all ask me. i must suffer... bleed out. i hate it. the'll notice. tired of being watched. i'm tired. no future. can't survive anywys. shouuld be dead. they want me dead. go away. i hate this. on't want to live... all is meaningless. i looked at all achievement and saw it was meaningless. in the place of justice there was wickedness. th ere is notyhing here. losing nmy memory. I deserve no compassion, no pity, no nothing! i am proven unlovable... my fate is suffering... im not making sense...