<font color="#000088"> I often wonder and have more/less 'self-diagnosed' myself as having bouts of rapid-cycling. It's the only explanation for what I go through. One minute I'm coherant adn the next I'm out there in la la land going spastic. Just as Bipolar Bear said, going without meds truly does wreak havoc on one's life. The last 'series' of episodes I went through were a result of my P-doc making me go 5 days without my meds (I'm at the mercy of the State mental health system - all my meds come directly from the place since I have no income and I get them at 'their' convenience, not mine - Long story for another day), it took over 3 weeks (just recently in fact) to get 're-stabalized' and required days/nights of pure HELL... No/little sleep, lock-down of my finances since I'll remember my CC #'s, but can't remember anything else I did 10 minutes ago...

Whenever I 'feel' it coming on, I know at least to let someone know if no one is around... I don't really think I truly know the whole 'ordeal' of rapid-cycling; I know we go up & down over & over, but the durations of each can really vary from one episdoe to the next... Just as I am typing this I have so many thoughts just racing that I have to keep re-reading what I'm typing bcuz I'm losing track over & over and over again....

I could go on forever, but I'll stop now so i don't bore you to death... Let me/us know if you feel things that are similar to what I wrote - I'm always interested in listening to another person and/or helping - we're all in this together.

Try to take it easy and I hope the best for you,
Niko </font>