So yeah...that was the calm before the storm. I'm still oddly calm, but the dark clouds are rolling in. Denied access to all financial accounts this morning. I don't have a "real" job, but I do work one day a week at a side job so at least I'll have that.

I have thought about T and have listened to him today, but haven't emailed or anything. I have the feeling of missing T and wanting him, but I'm not sure what it is I want from him. I feel afraid for what's to come, but so far it's not consuming me, not sure what my reactions, or rather lack of reactions mean.