I have just finished rereading all the posts on this thread and have come to the conclusion that I am speaking an ancient obscure language. All the responses, except those in direct response to my original post, were off topic and baiting. I willingly took it.

What I wrote here you can carve in stone. I believe it freely and make no attempt not to share. I accept the onus of not being able to communicate my point. I don't think I will ever to make myself understood. That I am now a troll is infuriating. Like I said before, the first post in response to my question was two lines directed at the point followed by a lecture on suicide, which was directly off topic. That I complained about it got quite a few pairs of knickers in a bunch.

There is a core group of longtime posters who knee jerk any response to one of their own without thinking about what is being said. That you are close works for you. Personally, it is not a group I feel is worth my effort.
I put in a request to have my account closed. As has been my experience, I do not want to belong to a club that would have me be a member.