"I want to be part of something, but always feel just 'outside' of it, always 'not good enough' , rejected, left out. I get anxious in social situations, I want to be accepted, I will sometimes (which I'm getting better at recognizing) sacrifice my values for approval. I get depressed and no one understands. I am not suicidal, nor have really experienced too much in that realm, but I have in the past injured myself with alcohol and substance abuse. I am extremely sensitive to criticism and fear it, even if it is done in a loving way, I feel that I'm being attacked, I in turn become defensive and angry. I'm fairly highly functional, I have days where I am filled with regret and shame and feel like a total loser. Other days I feel 'normal'."

You are speaking my language!! This is SO related to what i go through. Im wondering if once I get counseling, if this will be covered. How to deal with feeling rejected and left out (usually thoughts that are not real) and how to not judge ourselves and others so negatively!