gettingby: I'm glad you can relate to this, it feels good to know others understand and experience these things. I also know, like you mentioned, that the feelings of rejection are not 'real'. Other people are not even consciously rejecting me! I just feel it, I can't get it out of my head! It so frustrating. I'm sure other people try to make me feel included and as if I belong, yet I CANT HELP but feel detached, outcasted and alienated. In addition, I can't help but feel 'judged'.

I am hoping to work on this more...I really believe this is all about PERCEPTION, and not reality at all. But I make it my reality. :bangs head against wall: I know that CBT and DBT helps with this, I think I am going to try it more (Cognitive Behavioral and Dialectical Behavioral therapies). I'm not sure about counselling, most counsellors I've had have just been good listeners. I hope you have better luck.

Thank you for reading and understanding