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Old Aug 31, 2012, 01:40 PM
Healingchild Healingchild is offline
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She did diagnose very quickly I have not been seeing her very long at all! This is only my fourth time! I was seeing T1 for a year and a half and she never said anything about my mother or my ex she tried to say I was responsible for my life not them, in a way she was sigh but when you lived with such destructive people it was hard to control anything that happened without getting blamed for everything! I mean my ex war a total charmer, especially at first! Now, I did see some red flags at first but since it was my first relationship my radar wasn't tuned yet! Towards the end of the relationship she was still the same, abusive and manipulative! But once the affair started, her personality changed, her clothes changed, she never admitted it, trying instead to tell me I was imagining things, imagining seeing her car outside this girls house, imagining seeing a bill for flowers on her credit card receipt, imagining finding a picture of this girl under her bed! And for a while she had me so convinced I thought I was going crazy, I had a nervous breakdown and my last t just kept saying, this is your life button! Why are you. So concerned with everyone else, can you imagine how unhelpful that was to me at the time? So now I am finally glad that someone is not blaming me for everything! That it wasn't my fault and I did nothing wrong! I later found out my ex had lied to me about everything in her past and that she was only pretending to be this person so I would love her! It hurt at the time because I blamed myself for everything when in hindsight I couldn't have changed anything I did because she did this to all her other partners only I was the longest so it hurt more! My x t, wasn't very helpful with all of this, I asked heh once if I was going crazy and she said I don't know button, do you think you are? And I said I think I am having a nervous breakdown which I was full blown in the middle of one and she said I don't know as I have never had one but that is what your doctor is for!
I am so glad you are not seeing your old T. Maybe she should become a budget counsellor or something like that. As a child growing up in a abusive environment, things are happening to you but everybody is acting like nothing is wrong. That's crazy making. So when you see it happening again it drives you nuts.