Hi Indie So sorry u are having alot of grief with this. For me it was part of "growing up." Most people have done things that they regret. I know I sure have. If u feel wrong, then tell him and see what happens. If he rejects.you then he wasnt worth it to begin with. If a partner really cares then they wont force themselves on you. I would definately talk to T about this too if it were me. she can probably offer advice/help u feel better