that is such a great idea and if it is at all possible you should.. I was feeling much the same recently and did a little trip by myself.. I was able to walk, stare, cry, sleep, whatever I wanted or needed at the time without interruption. Doesn't even have to be an overnighter. I love big trees so I can drive 20 min and walk in the forest trails.. just me and the trees. I find it peaceful and so very quiet.

I do know what it's like to feel that lonely and yet crave to be alone as well. I feel for you.