cthonica

It's very hard when people tell you to move on when you yourself isn't over it. The fact that you are holding in so much anger towards the people that have hurt you, you're not ready for it. You do have to stop being angry, stop living in the past and reliving everything that you've gone through, it's tough to do I am just doing that now after 7 years of dealing. You can live with the regret that it happened and still move on with your life. You cannot live with the anger, shame and guilt, no one can live with that. Your therapist is right in away, that's no way to live ,but I totally understand where you are coming from hon. IT's touch to deal with this crap. You are welcome to PM me anytime, my email I think is on there and you can email me if you need too.

Have you picked up any books on abuse?

I have a really REALLY good book on body memories... It's called:

The Body Remembers: The Psychophysiology of Trauma and Trauma Treatment
by Babette Rothschild (Author)..

Another good book that I have on trauma is called: Trauma and Recovery
by Judith Lewis Herman (Author)

Take care of yourself, maybe i can help you with all this crap you are going through, You sound like me , but I don't have the anger, I don't think that I ever did.. I personally didn't realize how much it actually effected me until oneday out of the blue I Realized it.

Take care of yourself ok?


<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

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