everything that needed to be said is in my original post:P
i had never had these intrusive thoughts before, they kinda just...appeared.
i know its not me.
this isn't who i am.
im not one who favors rape or violence or the sort.
so its frightening that i have another voice thats invading.
its pretty hard to function normally with these invading thoughts.
i don't want to end up on the news being charged with a crime or anything.
i don't want to end up like those people who do horrible things.
im not into those terrible things.
oh, i just don't understand this:P