Hello and welcome to PC. I'm glad to hear that you are going to meet with your school counselor. With what you went through as a child working through some of those things in therapy could be really helpful.

While my experience was different from yours, I can relate to the feelings. I am a guy who had a lot of emotional baggage due to family issues and depression as I tried to enter into adulthood... I was very unhappy for a long time, but continued to try and work through things in therapy. For me it was a lifesaver! The depression is still here as I have clinical depression, but having worked through many of my issues and getting on meds I live a relatively "normal" and happy life...

So I hope you will stick with this and try to figure out what is happening with you. There are lots of options and you can work through those bad feelings. Given what you talked about with your childhood, it doesn't surprise me at all that you are dealing with some anger. You have a lot to be angry about! And that stuff doesn't just go away, it has to be dealt with in some way (in my experience anyway).

I'm glad you are here and posting. I hope to keep hearing more from you! If you ever need to talk feel free to message me.