This isn't meant to sound disparaging or make light of your situation so please don't take it that way. I'm sure it's quite scary. Regardless i'd love to enter another, more domineering personality for just a few minutes when I'm down, scared, or feeling that people are taking advantage of me. Lynda Carter's 1970's version of Wonder Woman comes to mind. Seriously...good luck in getting assistance and I'll be thinking of you.