My ex mentioned that he wants to stay as far away from me as possible. This needs context, but context would be too long for a post now. So suffice it to say that in the past such remarks invariably caused suicidality in me. Last time it was in the spring. I have a triggering thread on it here and am very indebted to the people who responded on that thread. They definitely contributed to my being alive now.
Shortly after that happened I was put on Prozac and the suicidality never returned. It did not rear its ugly head today either, despite similar situational circumstances. I conclude that the drug is working. I am able to see, statistically, that he has communicated the intent for a closure many times but has not followed through. What happened today is not worse than what happened in the past. So it is unlikely that anything will change. I am also not falling apart - I was even able to go out and eat a big salad with just a tiny bit of nausea, and in the past when something like this happened I would immediately become nauseated and unable to eat from anxiety. In the next three days I plan to put myself together again so that I can resume working on Tuesday (it is a long weekend in America). I know that a day will come when I post funny posts on here again - one day. I am able to keep the perspective.

I must say, I am very impressed. What a big difference. Not even a trace of suicidality. I sure hope this drug does not poop out on me. Knock on wood.